antidonnie @ :
i am the paraground. every person who walked through the doors are the paraground. every band who played here are the paraground. every person who was inspired by music is the paraground. every person who joined or formed a band is the paraground. every person who lived here is the paraground. every person who has ever shaken my hand or given me a hug is the paraground. every person who has let me bum a beer or let me bum a smoke is the paraground. every person who has fed me is the paraground.
the paraground is dead. this version anyway. i will not rest or stop or lay down until we have another music venue.
let me tell you why this version is dead.
when we started we were all ages. we were able to stay open for a year. we were about to close the paraground because there was no income except the door charge and i was letting everyone in for free. a guy came along and asked me to become a bar and he would put money into the paraground. i said no because my heart was into the all ages idea. so i thought about it for a while and decided it to go with it.
this guy believed in me and put his faith ito me. so did all of you people. every single one of you. but i have failed and let me tell you why / how.
this guy agreed to pay my bills until we got going and had income. a couple of times he let me borrow 1,000$. one time he let me borrow 1,500$. the next month - the month of november - i asked for money to pay my bills. he deposited 1,700$ into the bank. i took out 1,500$ for my personal bills thinking it was ok because i took out 1,500$ the month before. my mistake was not asking for the 1,500$. so i got in trouble for it. the trouble has not come to me yet - but it will.
last night - friday december 2nd - the paraground was raided by friends of the guy who put money into the paraground because he was pissed off at me. he says i stole the 500$. i did not steal the 500$. i used it to pay 500$ of the 600$ it cost to pay blue lou and his band to play here the second wednesday of november. is that not a business expense? it is but i did not inform the guy about it - so i am accused of embezzlement.
i was told that we would work things out and his portion of the paraground would be sold to me and faerie. i was told until the 1st of december that my bills would be paid. when the 1st rolled around - i was told to close the paraground and give up all of the assets. so i did. we did. my bills are not paid. i have no money for rent or for food. i have no money for smokes or beer. i have nothing except for love and inspiration. i have love for all of you people. i have so much love for each and every individual that has ever been here. i have so much love for the people who believed in me. i have so many memories that will never be forgotten. so many experiences. my dreams have come true through the paraground. my favorite band in the world has played the paraground twice. it was an honor. deadboy and the elephantmen has played the paraground. there were people who were inspired by the paraground and that alone is an honor. so i did walk away with something - just no money. but that is not what i was interested in anyway. farie and all of you have made my dreams come true. i say thank you for that.
i believe now that i am going to jail. i believe that this guy is going to put me in jail. but i am not scared. i admit that i made a mistake and i apologize to you all and the guy for the mistake. it was an honest mistake and there is nothing more that i can say about it. i made a mistake - simple as that. i cannot say that i am sorry in any other words than that. i cannot say that i am sorry enough. i am sorry.
please - please - please - do not try to talk to talk to me about this in person or online. please tell your friends and your people what you have read here because i cannot speak of this without crying. i am devastated about this. my dream is done. the paraground is done. the paraground is closed. all shows are canceled all events are off.
please - please - please - do not stop. do not rest until your dreams come true - mine have - yours can to.
to all of the bands / musicians / people who love music - do not stop. you can do anything you want to do. you band will succeed if you try hard enough. the blue monkey is still here - all you have to do is ask and put your heart into and they will let you play there.
to all of the people that the paraground owes money to i wll pay you as soon as i can.
one day - i will be back. believe that. i will not rest until i am. i have already been to this side of the universe and i shall return.
i tell you now - from the bottom of my heart - thank you to everyone - and i am sorry. i leave you with this message that i woke up to today that totally made me cry all over again.
Donnie Troy Griffith
"donnie man.. its hard to believe whats happening with the paraground.
its fucked up.
ive said a lot of this shit before, but ill say it again. i owe a lot to you, and faire (sp?). if it wasnt for you two opening the paraground, i wouldent know hardly any of the great people at all that i know now.
you having the paraground, made one of my biggest dreams come true.. which was playing guitar in a band, and playing on stage for people.
i owe so fuckin much to you two. i probly would of never met the band i play for now, if it wasnt for paraground.
i dont know what to say man. its sad.. for real.
but yeah though.. thank you. a lot.
and i care deeply about everyone of you.
and im always here for you guys. if ever needed for anything.
take care . "
written by marshmello man.